hey, did she ask about me?

holiday road

2008-07-20T16:19:55Z

portland for 2 weeks
be back on my b day
SEE YA!

part of this is about you ( i guess. i'm pretty drunk not totally sure what this means)

2008-06-12T07:31:45Z

i'm just a drinking alone tonight
and i'm usually not this way
i smell like booze
and i dream of a cruise
with the sun and a gun
and a girl that is dressed as a nun

so she's far away
and i've got game
shes all that i want
and everything but
oh my god

so i tell you i dont
but i really do
and when i'm kissin you
i might as well be dissin you
and i won't look straight into your eyes
cause i'm probably telling you lies
i want to be cool
i'm playing you as a fool

so shes so far away
and i'm playing her as the game
shes all that i want
and everything but
though shes got a smile
and i've walked for miles
this just isnt going my way

so you have a boyfriend
my love i wont send
you won't have to respond to me
you're heart won't have to bend
you're not thinking of me
in any way
no

though i may be missing you
i will not be kissing you
i won't be dissing you
in any way

and shes so far away
and she is not the game
shes all that i want
and everything but
oh my god

let this be known
that my heart was once owned
she completely ruined me
diced up and skewered me
and though you were good to me
i was not the man i should be

and now you're far away
and you were never game
you were all that i wanted
and everything
YES EVERYTHING
TO ME

though i just couldnt
be what you need
NO

lets just say

2008-04-30T20:41:47Z

a load has been lifted

oh and it looks like portland sometime this summer

myjokesmakeucry @ 2008-04-26T19:34:00

2008-04-26T23:36:43Z

i'm usually sticking up for my town
i get offended when my friends say how everyone here sucks and they want to move
because i think "hey i'm one of the people that live here"
and i mean this is my home and i will always love it....

that being said this place is really starting to depress me. being single for 2 years is starting to catch up to me and start to bother me for the first time since i first started being single again. haha not that i think moving would be the solution to finding a girlfriend but thats beside the point. its getting to a point where i can count the people i would miss on both my hands and maybe not even use all 10. Of course that is not counting family.

i'm sick of going out, seriously why isnt everyone sick of ybor. i'm still okay with downtown as long as i can spend too much on a jukebox and hear what i want to hear.

i'm just starting to feel claustrophobic in this town and i am seeking a fresh start

last night

2008-02-07T00:24:29Z

bottle of tequila-killed it
bottle of jager-killed it
with the ladies-killed it

i'm awesome

i've been tagged apparently

2008-02-05T21:27:54Z

A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it."

A:

1) i'm 24 and i live with my mom and dog

2) i wouldnt exactly tell you that my current guilty pleasure is taylor swift

3) i have not had sober or intimate sex with someone since dec 05(nor have i had much at all period)

4) i'm the best frontman you have ever seen, just don't expect me to sing good

5) i have a michael bolton song on my itunes

6) if you're a girl and i know you, i probably want to have sex with you, doesnt mean i will try, but i've thought about a couple of times

7) i say i hope she's happy, but i really don't

B.
i dont think 7 people even read my lj but lets see

xprettyinplaidx
somderdaydreams
airisthick
ms_wrong
shexsurvives
hoboken_to_la
jarjar_brit

open letter to patriot fans

2008-02-05T04:28:39Z

Dear Patriot Fan,

so i mean really besides if you are actually from new england, which i guess is understandable, but, why like the patriots? At least the team that they are this season.

Because to me its like watching the Karate Kid and routing for these guys

seriously man (this what its about!)

but you know what, there is a really shitty hardcore scene in boston with a bunch of macho alpha male mother fuckers who probably have dressed up as skeletons at one p oint or another in their lives and did there fucking retarded spin kick dancing

fuckin fags
well they got theres
and the pats did too

and thats how it is

ps
oh and did you notice how your boy bellecheck walked right off the field before the game was officially over, didnt even congratulate the giants coach? what a douche move, he must of took that right from the cobra kai sensei's book.

why new years never start out so great for me

2007-12-31T05:35:08Z

not my own words
but this is my story
so to speak

this must be it
welcome to the new year
the drinks were consumed
the plants were destroyed and the hors d'oeuvres dismantled
i'm not smiling behind this fake veneer
i am often interrupted or completely ignored
but most of all i'm bored
i'm trying to find out if my words have any meaning
lackluster and full of contempt when it always ends the same
why won't she listen to me
why did i come
oh why did i come here
these humans all suck
i'd rather be home feeling violent and lonely
i'm not trying to sound so insincere
but the postcard that's taped to the freezer reads "wish you were here"
how i wish i could disappear
i'm trying to find out if my words have any meaning
lackluster and full of contempt and it always ends the same
heads up
damage control
there's a ring around her finger
last chance for changing lanes and you missed it by a mile
why won't you listen to me
this must be it
welcome to the new year

I like the universe, but she messes with my words
I'm not talking planets or galaxies and the distance just makes it worse.
I know what you're thinking, this probably sounds rehearsed.

So let's give it up for the New Year
Did this party of two have you slightly confused?
Now that our things are divided
She refuses to speak and I'm driftin' to sleep at the wheel.

Liquids, powders and pills, not quite taken against my will.
The tastes tests of girls, from all over the world
who refuse to accept my excuses.
She put up with so much, of my madness and my self-abuse
She would tend to my wounds and fill me with food when I'd stumble in drunk for breakfast,
She was right to take off before she was consumed

So let's give it up for the New Year
Did this party of two have you slightly confused?
Now that our things are divided
She refuses to speak and I'm driftin' to sleep at the wheel.

So let's give it up for the New Year
Did this party of two have you slightly confused?
Now that our things are divided
She refuses to speak and I'm driftin' to sleep at the wheel.

So let's give it up for the New Year
Did this party of two have you slightly confused?
Now that our things are divided
She refuses to speak and I'm driftin' to sleep at the wheel.

I like the universe, but she messes with my words
I'm not talking planets or galaxies and the distance just makes it worse.

...you're totally right, every action was well rehearsed.

not that anyone cares

2007-12-16T09:32:09Z

but my 2007 best of list
is as follows

favorites of 2007

favorite albums
in no particular order

john ralston-sorry vampire
band of horses-cease to begin
ted leo-living with the living
arcade fire-neon bible
editors-an end has a start
the shins-wincing the night away
tegan and sara-the con
wilco-sky blue sky
jimmy eat world-chase this light
the honorary title-scream and light up the sky
say anything-in defence of the genre
bruce springsteen-magic
against me-new wave
rilo kiley-under the blacklight( i dont know why alot of people didnt like this record, it was their last record that kind of stunk)
the national-boxer
and finally i'm sorry but fallout boys infinity on high was a really good pop record, no way around it.

my favorite movies of the year

superbad
knocked up
hairspray
live free or die hard
transformers
music and lyrics
hot fuzz
spiderman 3(look it was an entertaining movie so quit being a fag about it)
there are still a whole lot of movies i have not seen this year because i don't like going to the theater any more so don't hold it against me. i will probably see eventually some really great movies that came out this year, just not till next year

the best new tv shows

chuck
reaper
pushing daisys

nerding out

2007-12-12T05:27:54Z

out of hand

2007-12-06T04:07:03Z

sometimes things get out of hand
some nights are made to not have tomorrows
but of course what happens
tomorrow comes anyway.

so another year is ending
its been a mediocre one at best
made friends
made mistakes
came to peace with certain things
let go
got over
received good news
received bad news

i have some favorite albums this year

john ralston-sorry vampire
band of horses-cease to begin
jimmy eat world-chase this light

i have not fallen in love or been in love at all this year
its better than a year of loving someone whos not there and who you know in your heart of hearts is so totally wrong for you and not even the kind of person you want to spend a day with.

i like my job
there are better jobs out there
i wish they had something here like the motown night they do at ibar in orlando, i know they have a soul night at the orphuem but i guarantee its not as fun as the one i went to last night.

at least there is music
at least there are movies
there needs to be more nights of board games

new monk this friday

oh and finally
i'm really sorry
didnt mean for things to get out of hand

tis the season

2007-11-27T05:45:56Z

well the past two days i have gone for a walk/run with my dog. its pretty nice, I mean i have an entire park for my backyard...I should be taking advantage of it. I'm liking music again that is not from decades ago.(though I am still certain that no matter how great their newest cd is when i am 50 and i get out a record to play it will more likely be the four tops or the beach boys rather than band of horses or arcade fire) but its nice to enjoy music and not be pretentious about it. Besides i think enough people know of these bands now that I am jumping on the bandwagon just in time for it to uncool which lets face it. TOTALLY MY STYLE

I really love xmas music
my all time favorite song being christmas(baby please come home) by Darlene Love and produced by that crazy head phil spector. you might remember it for opening the movie gremlins.
The Hold Steady should make a christmas album
I just think they need to make more music. my love for them is a new love but its growing and moving way to fast ha.

i love monday and thursday night tv. rumors are that the writers and studios are coming to an agreement this week so i might have to deal with anymore reality shit than i already do on my television.

well i guess i dont have much else to say
i am a big fan of christmas time although its always hard without my dad around. its so silly how much one man's existence means to so many people. hell its what one of my favorite movies(which happens to be a christmas movie) is all about, It's A Wonderful Life. My Family is totally different because he is gone, we are not as close as we used to be and its a bummer. Ever hear of someone being the glue that keeps people together... well that was my dad. i miss him all the time, even more so this time of year... but i still love the season, i wish i could understand all the bah humbug people out there. i just get an overall good feeling as soon as the slightest bit of chill hits and christmas music is playing everywhere we go.
man i said i dont have much else to say an entire paragraph ago

i'm listening to that new found glory song ex miss right this very second haha
and just in time
i'm kind of tired and have work in the AM

goodnight

ps
im excited about the bucs
though my real deal superbowl prediction is pats vs pacs
and nothing is gonna stop favre this year
i've got packers for the whole thing
but a boy can still hope
GO BUCS!

its wonderfull outside

2007-11-04T23:54:39Z

thats really all i have to say

GO COLTS!

things i currently love about my life

2007-10-31T08:33:53Z

watching chuck on mondays with my mom
DVR
still rocking the ps2
the red stripe i am drinking right now
being single? sometimes
my dog boo
the constants of good music
watching the monster squad tomorrow
the office
(i dont need romance because i have jim and pam and my dog)
work for the most part
sketchstache
there might be more but i'm getting kind of tired

the world series

2007-10-25T06:28:49Z

well its one of my favorite times of the year
the fall.
and i love it for many different reasons.
one is the world series, if the rest of the series is going to be liek tonight's game its going to be a really boring series.

oh and red sox fans, well at least the ones i know. how come you dont say anything all year long but now that the red sox are in the series you talk like you are hot shit because the sox are kicking ass in the series. man i hope the rockies can pull out a miracle. i was behind the sox 100% a few years back with the whole reverse the curse deal. I love stories like that, and i'm usually the guy who goes for the underdogs. this year the red sox are more of the bullies so fuck them and ridiculous manny rameriez. now i have some friends that are red sox friends and they are really great people but man red sox fans can be douchebags, not even to anyone, its just they ooze douchebagary. maybe they let a championship go to their head. thats why yankee fans are assholes too. someday the devil rays are actually gonna have a winning team and maybe go to and win the series and when that happens there are gonna be all these devil ray fans all the sudden. man people suck i love that shitty ass team and so should you.

anyway
GO ROCKIES

shooting whiskey and shoothing stars(big bang theory)

2007-10-01T19:19:25Z

she's so sick of this scene she says
same bar different night
there's not enough whiskey in the world
to make me feel alright
well its friday and i just got paid
shes glossy eyed
and i'm hoping to get laid

so i'll make her feel alright

lets toast to shooting whiskey and shootings stars
chasing drinks with chasing you
and waiting for this universe to be born
waiting for a big bang
waiting for you to feel alright

alright?

she said you boys are all the same
black jeans, beards and beer bellyies aren't my thing
well babe i don't have a beard
you're pretty and probably out of my league
but i'm just high enough to get a nose bleed
as a familiar song plays on the jukebox
she says its funny how the right 3 chords make your heart sting
I say its funny how a fist pumping chorus makes you want to sing

girl lets get another shot
lets put our hearts at stake
lets make some questionable mistakes

lets toast to shooting whiskey and shootings stars
chasing drinks with chasing you
and waiting for this universe to be born
waiting for a big bang
waiting to take you home

last call
and we stumble out of the bar
sour kisses on central ave
you say this reminds me of the song you played on the jukebox
"take me home tonight"
so i say "be my little baby"

the shots been taken
i'm pretty sure i've scored
hope when you wake in the morning
i'm not already gone
you're pretty and far too out of my league

heres to nights like these
and no hangover hopes
to burning hearts on top of burning stomachs,
faking romance
grass stains, torn jeans and bruises,
long, hard, wet kisses
that last for 3 days

heres to shooting whiskey and shootings stars
chasing drinks with chasing you
and waiting for this universe to be born
waiting for a big bang
waiting for a big bang

amazing

2007-09-24T21:11:38Z

so i'm in south fl hanging out with my best friends marc and greg till wednesday. the last two days were spent in delray beach for two dashboard confessional solo shows with john ralston at a venue that holds 525, last nights show wasnt even sold out so it was maybe 300 people. yeah yeah yeah dashboard was amazing and he played some old shit he hasnt played in ages. his voice is back, hes back in general and i was very happy.
last night however after the show i was invited to some dive bar in boca after the show. so who did i have to follow there? the man himself driving dan bonebrake's mini van. so the night went on, a couple beers, some mini burgers and talks. said my goodbyes and that i had to get driving to jupiter which was a good 30 mins from where i was and it was already getting late. so of course chris brings me in for the hug and tells me how much it means to him that i'm still here. yeah so i'm retarded and i love dashboard and chris carrabba but screw you if you don't understand. no matter what happens, selling out madison square garden, arena tours, hes real and finds a way to pull me back in. not everyone has something that is always there for them and for the people that don't understand its their loss. so i told him it means alot to me that hes still here doing it.

so yeah this is my sappy gay lj entry, but this was a really good weekend and something i needed bad

pretty brilliant

2007-09-03T20:42:37Z

and sad how accurate it is

like jack bauer

2007-08-04T00:29:56Z

24
in just a few hours

WTF

2007-05-09T05:17:14Z

What came first, the music or the misery? People worry about kids playing with guns, or watching violent videos, that some sort of culture of violence will take them over. Nobody worries about kids listening to thousands, literally thousands of songs about heartbreak, rejection, pain, misery and loss. Did I listen to pop music because I was miserable? Or was I miserable because I listened to pop music?

great weekend

2007-04-24T22:03:01Z

dakota fanning springs
fooling hicks that me and greg are totally gay for one another
awesome bbq
seeing old friends
good times
beer
weed
laughs
farting contests
moe's
alot of bad televison
evil cat

i think thats it

but there needs to be more weekends of this calibur

i love

2007-04-18T03:03:39Z

when god only knows randomly plays on my itunes!

oh i think i have a date sometime in the near future
thats pretty bad ass
also i secretly and slowly becoming a wresting fan again like when i was 10

my best friend of 10 years will be gone in less than 10 days

2007-02-14T21:15:49Z

I am really going to miss Andrew, but I am also super excited for him

I hope everything works out for him
hopefully something works out for me too

time flies when you're tossing clocks

2007-01-11T05:55:48Z

it sure does

I am Super-Stoked!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-13T18:10:53Z

Me, Mark, and Marc our a team
and got our auditions for the World Series Of Pop Culture on VH1
we will be called Brothers From Other Mothers
our audition is feb 16th in orlando if we get called back we get to enter a tournament against the other callbacks and the winner of that gets to go to nyc for the taping of the real deal
THE BIG SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am super excited about it
we are going to kick the fuck out of everyone